Wednesday, April 28, 2010

Soul Searching

I've done a lot of soul searching the last couple of days, and something has been made clear to me. I'm not going to wait I'm going to carry on TTC for better or worse. Yet another one of my Facebook friends announced that she was PG. Every time I hear a PG announcement I feel like a bigger piece of me is missing. The hubs and I have talked and if he doesn't find work when a baby finally arrives then I will go back to work and he will be a stay at home dad for a while. My dream is for me to stay home but if that doesn't work out then that's fine. Hopefully if I do get PG my pregnancy won't be high stress and I can carry on working. We'll cross that bridge when we come to it, I'm going to go with the flow and see what happens you can't plan everything the way you want. Hopefully the hubs will find work soon.

So next month it's back to temping, my new insurance kicks in soon. So I'm going to make an appointment to see what's going on, 5mths still no PG however I am getting regular cycles. Maybe I'm not ovulating strong enough. We shall see. I do want to thank everyone for your kind messages advice and support. :-)


Kelli said...

Congrats to you on making the hard decision! I know that it probably seems so "up in the air" but I would have done the same thing. Waiting has always been the hardest part for me...I'm so impatient! :) Sounds to me like you've got a good tentative plan in place...fingers crossed that you can use it soon. Also, still praying for C to find employment!

Hope your new job is still going great and that your new insurance rocks so that you can get to the doc and find some answers. Will you have to see a new doc?

In response to your comment, we're doing fine! Counting down the days. P will probably be here in a month or so...which completely and totally freaks me out!! :) I'll be posting about it all today, so stop back by when you have time.

Hope things are looking up in Washington! Have a great weekend, my friend. :)