Monday, February 1, 2010


I'm 10dpo today and my temp went back up slightly so that's a good thing. Last night I was getting AF type cramps but I'm not due for another 5days. They have gone now so I don't know what is going on.

Been doing a lot of soul searching the last couple of days about the whole TTC journey and where DH and I are now. It's funny how I look at other couples lives and are actually jealous of what they have. Why is it so easy for them to fall into jobs have a nice house and have a family? I am literally desperate to have all those things and yet nothing is happening. I know I haven't been an Angel all the of the time I have done things I'm not proud of but I still think I deserve all those things. It's gotten to the point where I can't watch baby shows or shows like House Hunters cause I feel really jealous of those people living their lives and we are stuck in some sort of rut.

I guess I have to have hope and faith that things will work out for the best but sometimes it doesn't make life right now any easier.