Sunday, December 20, 2009

The subject of TTC has come up a number of times between Clayton and myself. I suffer with Polycystic Ovary Syndrome, and trying to decide when the right time to start a family was always an interesting topic for us. I always wanted to be a mum, I always wanted to be a young mother. Here I am 26 and a half emotionally ready to have a child. I feel I've gone through my education, had a blast with a little bit of traveling and feel settled and content in our marriage. With all this in mind there has been a few things that have maybe made us rethink our decision.

Clayton is out of work and I'm only freelancing. At the moment Clayton does have unemployment coming in which lasts until May. My freelancing is always up and down so you can't guarantee a steady paycheck. We currently have medical coverage privately, so that isn't an issue. We also live in a 1 Bedroom cottage that we rent from Clayton's uncle which is on his property. With a nice rent discount we have been able to save a little bit of money to help us out in a situation if I were to become PG.

Whether to start TTC now or wait until Clayton got a job was a tough decision for us. I feel I don't want to wait much longer due to my PCOS I've read many women's experiences where it has taken years to conceive and some are still trying. I really don't want to give up those years of fertility! I don't want to wake up one morning and realize I am 30 something and then those fertile years are gone, yeah sure Clayton has good job but we are then in for an even rougher road when we are TTC. As I said before I always wanted to be a young mother, in my 20s at least. Clayton and I have decided we would like at least 2 kids properly spaced apart which means I would be having my second child in my 30s anyway.

There is no way of knowing what the future holds I could conceive right away it could take a couple of months it could even take a year. Clayton could also find work next week or he could find work just before his unemployment runs out. There's no way of knowing. It's a leap of faith, all I know my heart is saying yes and I just have to have faith that things will work out for the best. Maybe I'm selfish and people might say it's irresponsible, but you only have one life this is it! I'm not going to waste these precious years of fertility, especially with the dreaded PCOS hanging over our heads.


[cre] said...

Hi Natalie!!!
(cre13 from SoulCysters)

I will be following your blog! Good luck to you hun ... I like that we're very close in our cycle!! We'll have to compare notes more often -- my "almost" positive OPKs are driving me crazy!!!! Sending tons of sticky baby dust your way!!!

Justina said...

Hi Natalie! Welcome to the blogging world! I too have PCOS which has made getting and staying pregnant a hard thing for us. We had family members ask if we were emotionally and financially ready to start a family. That is something though that only you and your hubby know. (It's such a hard decision to make though!!)I wish you the best of luck in your decision and in your journey! I'll be following you along too.

Kelli said...

Hi, Natalie...thanks so much for stopping by and introducing yourself. It's wonderful to 'meet' you! I hope you get as much enjoyment and encouragement out of TTC/IF blogging as I do. :)

I wish there was an easy answer to the TTC question! It is so hard, isn't it? I know exactly what you're feeling...I was in your shoes at 26, too. Actually, most everything you wrote applied to me 5 years ago...wanting to be a younger mom, settling down, having kids a couple of years apart...even the job situations! The only difference is that we were newly married and no one thought we were "ready" to start a family...sometimes not even us!

And so we waited...and then ended up on the TTC Merry-Go-Round for 4 years. Not that starting any sooner would have made a difference for us medically but I would have felt better about things. :)

It's only my opinion, of course, but you have to find something that works for YOU. Whether it's waiting or jumping in with both feet, the upside to this (if you can call it that) is that you KNOW about your PCOS and can be treating it now even before you TTC. Sometimes that makes a big difference. I wasn't diagnosed until 11 months ago...after my 4th loss. The meds and diet made a difference for us...something that I wish I had known when we started our TTC journey. You can be proacticve about things and be so much more in charge of your health than I was. Who knows where that can lead? :)

I'm really looking forward to getting to know you and reading more as your journey progresses. You'll be in my thoughts and prayers...all the best to you!

Kelli said...

BTW: you might find this 'funny' word verification code when I posted my comment was "PREGGO". :)