Major temp rise

My temp shot up this morning to 98.5 the highest it's ever been. I was so excited I took a test BFN. I was looking at the test and imagining there was a line, what am I crazy or something?  - I even took the test apart to examine it closer. I think I might have a couple of screws loose or something.

In other news a couple of my facebook friends have announced that they are expecting. I''m happy for them I really am. I just wish I could say that without feeling the green eyed monster lurking behind me. Jealously is a horrible feeling, and I wonder when will it be our turn.

Waiting...

I am 11dpo and I'm surprised I haven't tested yet. I think a part of me thinks I'm not even PG this month as I didn't have much of a chance. I guess we shall see what happens.

On another note I'm debating on closing this blog down. Not many people come by and comment and I rarely visit other people's blogs.

Here we go again.

Well here I am again in the 2 week wait, apparently I'm currently 3dpo. I'm not holding out much hope for this cycle as it looks like my O day was 3-4 days early. My chart clearly shows that I had a thermal shift on CD16 FF also gave me my crosshairs on that day. My CM wasn't even fertile around that time and I'm not even getting EWCM anymore the first month I was off the pill I had loads of it last month nothing this month nothing. It just seems to be watery. I haven't been getting any positive OPKs funnily enough I started testing on CD16 so it looks like I did probably O then and I missed the surge a couple of days before.

It's just so frustrating the last two cycles were CD19 and 20 and now it's gone to CD16 there's no way of catching it if my O day is jumping all over the place. I very much doubt we will get a BFP this month as we only really had one Bedding session on CD14. It's possible but I highly doubt it.

Cre from Confessions of a TTC-A-Holic nominated me for an award. I must list 10 things that make my day and then list 10 blogs who deserve this award.  Wow - only 10?  If I nominate you, please do the same on your blog!

Here goes: 10 things that make my day:

1.  My husband telling me he loves me.
2.  Having the strength to go all the way on a trail walk.
3.  Being blessed that I've made some new friends on and off line.
4.  Thankful that I can still be apart of my family even if they are so many miles away.
5.  Going Bowling with friends.
6.  I'm amazed at how much my husband adores me.
7.  Proud that we made it out of Target without spending more than $75
8. Finding a nice frame at Michaels to frame a Christmas gift. Then finding out the Frame was on sale.
9. Returning a throw for the Sofa at Target and finding an even better one I liked and it was cheaper. 
10. Curling up on the sofa with the Hubs and watching a movie.

For my list of 10 Deserving Blogs:

1. Wstful Girl
2. Barren Blog
3. Letters To My Unborn Child
4. Confessions of an (Infertile) Shopaholic
5. Not a Fertile Myrtle
6. A hope and a wish for a gift from a petri dish
7. Woman Anyone?
8. Inconceivable
9. No Lingerie Here
10. Adventures in Baby Waiting

Oh BTW I also managed to get a feed going on my blog, so hopefully you'll be able to pick up my latest posts. You may want to update your links to refresh my blog.

A Pumpkin Baby

AF has been and gone and now I'm on CD7. I just realized that if we get a BFP this month we will be looking at a Thanksgiving baby. I'm so excited at the thought of this!! A little Pumpkin baby :)

Dear AF,

Thank you for the visit last month we had an interesting time together. However I really wish you hadn't stopped by this month especially 2 days early. I mean you should have called first to warn me you were on the way. Next month please don't show up at all your not really welcome, but I guess if you have to stop by please leave me a message and let me know when you'll show up.

Thank you
Natalie.

Waiting...

I'm 10dpo today and my temp went back up slightly so that's a good thing. Last night I was getting AF type cramps but I'm not due for another 5days. They have gone now so I don't know what is going on.

Been doing a lot of soul searching the last couple of days about the whole TTC journey and where DH and I are now. It's funny how I look at other couples lives and are actually jealous of what they have. Why is it so easy for them to fall into jobs have a nice house and have a family? I am literally desperate to have all those things and yet nothing is happening. I know I haven't been an Angel all the of the time I have done things I'm not proud of but I still think I deserve all those things. It's gotten to the point where I can't watch baby shows or shows like House Hunters cause I feel really jealous of those people living their lives and we are stuck in some sort of rut.

I guess I have to have hope and faith that things will work out for the best but sometimes it doesn't make life right now any easier.

Opinions Please

Just wanted to get a quick opinion from you ladies. FF is bouncing between CD15 - CD16 - CD19 for O day. I took away my positive opk on CD16 and it changed it back to 15. But in your opinion which day looks more like O day? I thought it looked more like CD15 or CD19. If I take out all my positive opks then it changes my crosshairs to cd19.

http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/185c40

It makes more sense for it to be CD19 as I Od CD20 last month, but if it is CD19 then I'm bummed cause we didn't bed then, seeming it looked like I Od CD15 the last time we bd was CD17 lets hope the little guys lasted that long, I think they can last 48hrs right?